Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat, Pinterest. All forms of social media that magnify skinny perfect looking men and women. For a person with an eating disorder it is extremely hard to not look at this content of search for it when you know it’s available. Instagram has made an amazing step by offering help for anyone searching for such content before showing it, but is this enough? In my instance as someone who is recovered no. For the past few days I’ve been having a few subconscious days where I’ve laid in bed all day and scrolled through pinterest and instagram so at such images. Although this is a normal habit for me I normally have a few low days, cry alittle and then move on and get back to have a healthy view on life and myself but today was different. Today I reached for “the book”, the book was a book that I used to keep track of everything I ate, every time I ate and how long I went without food. Today was the first day in 4 years that I kept track of it again.
As I’m writing this I remind myself of how far I’ve come and how little of a blip today is. Tomorrow is going to be so much better. I refuse to let social media and the book dictate my view on myself.