For the past two weeks my anxiety has been through the roof and my eating disorder has been playing up as well. The reason? I’m suspecting, Aripiprazole. I was warned before taking this medication for my Bipolar Disorder that it would cause my mania to rise but I didn’t think it would rise this much. I have been on edge and unable to calm my … Continue reading How I’ve Calmed Down
As you can guess from the title, I told my manager at work about my Bipolar today. Granted I told the person I work closest with first, but this was the first time someone in charge of me knew. I just wanted to update you all on how things have been since. It surprisingly went very well! I have had nothing but positivity from my … Continue reading I told my 9-5 about my Bipolar
Last week I had a comment made on one of my old posts about my eating disorder – which has since been deleted. Someone took it upon themselves to ask me how I had the cheek to still write about an eating disorder when I’m now “fine” … “Fine” “Fine”? Fine. People with eating disorders and people who are in recovery are never “fine”. Eating … Continue reading Things you should never say to someone who has an eating disorder.
My lovely friend Ida tagged me to write a letter to my brain. LOL let’s see how this goes. Dear Brain, What are you playing at? Why after 6 years of being medically fine have you decided it’s time to fuck about?! It’s fine though I understand. Everything couldn’t be too great for too long right? I just want to say we’re going to be … Continue reading A letter to my brain
This month has been the worst for my open university journey. I’ve had to ask for an extension and I just can’t concentrate. If you read other parts of my blog then you will know that I’ve recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which brings medication. I’m half way through my OU year and have not been able to concentrate one bit! Whether it’s … Continue reading OU June Monthly Update
It’s safe to say that I know a thing or two about being manic. Not manic “ahh I’m so stressed” but manic as in “ahh I have no idea what I’m doing right now”. I realized that as I’ve documented my Bipolar journey I’ve never wrote about the mania side of it. This is because when I’m manic I rarely think anything’s wrong and just … Continue reading Hey Mania!
The Lovely Ida nominated me for this award, to say I’m super stoked about it would be an understatement. If you’re new to the blogging word, I’d highly recommend checking her out. She’s an explain we should all follow, expressive about a important movement whilst being completely badass and lovely all in one. So Thank you Around the ward in 80 days! WHAT IS MYSTERY … Continue reading The Mystery Blogger Award
To the girl at the gym, You make me self-conscious and you make me realise everything that’s wrong with me. When you walk onto the running floor every girl looks and you can tell by the look in their eyes that they feel threatened. You’re the real version of a “instagram fitness model” and you damn know it. I lost my confidence big time this … Continue reading To the girl at the gym
You’ll notice as of recent my blog has been extremely quiet. This is because reality has hit me super hard. I have two essays due in early July with Open University, work is very busy at the moment and I’ve just started on my Bipolar medication. Not only has my blog taken a hit but the gym has as well. My Bipolar medication totaled me at the … Continue reading Madness Update
Today. Today’s been different. Today’s been kind. Today is the first day in over a year that I have felt slightly like myself again. Today I’ve spent the majority of my day smiling. After seeing my psychiatrist on Thursday it’s really hit home that I’m going to be fine. Every bad day I’ve had has been down to an imbalance of chemicals in my brain. 2018 has … Continue reading