For the past two weeks my anxiety has been through the roof and my eating disorder has been playing up as well. The reason? I’m suspecting, Aripiprazole. I was warned before taking this medication for my Bipolar Disorder that it would cause my mania to rise but I didn’t think it would rise this much. I have been on edge and unable to calm my … Continue reading How I’ve Calmed Down
I decided that I wanted to start a new blog series where I give other bloggers the chance to write about anything and post it on my blog to help share an issue or for advice. The lovely Ida is my first guest blogger. She to me is an inspiration, she has taken an awful experience and turned it into something beautiful. Where as I’m still … Continue reading Fragile – Guest Post
Last week I had a comment made on one of my old posts about my eating disorder – which has since been deleted. Someone took it upon themselves to ask me how I had the cheek to still write about an eating disorder when I’m now “fine” … “Fine” “Fine”? Fine. People with eating disorders and people who are in recovery are never “fine”. Eating … Continue reading Things you should never say to someone who has an eating disorder.
My lovely friend Ida tagged me to write a letter to my brain. LOL let’s see how this goes. Dear Brain, What are you playing at? Why after 6 years of being medically fine have you decided it’s time to fuck about?! It’s fine though I understand. Everything couldn’t be too great for too long right? I just want to say we’re going to be … Continue reading A letter to my brain
It’s safe to say that I know a thing or two about being manic. Not manic “ahh I’m so stressed” but manic as in “ahh I have no idea what I’m doing right now”. I realized that as I’ve documented my Bipolar journey I’ve never wrote about the mania side of it. This is because when I’m manic I rarely think anything’s wrong and just … Continue reading Hey Mania!
To the girl at the gym, You make me self-conscious and you make me realise everything that’s wrong with me. When you walk onto the running floor every girl looks and you can tell by the look in their eyes that they feel threatened. You’re the real version of a “instagram fitness model” and you damn know it. I lost my confidence big time this … Continue reading To the girl at the gym
You’ll notice as of recent my blog has been extremely quiet. This is because reality has hit me super hard. I have two essays due in early July with Open University, work is very busy at the moment and I’ve just started on my Bipolar medication. Not only has my blog taken a hit but the gym has as well. My Bipolar medication totaled me at the … Continue reading Madness Update
I was taking with my therapist this morning about my eating disorder and how my bipolar has massively influenced it. As it’s always been linked with my trying to gain control, being told you have an incurable illness was going to set every trigger off. Does anyone else with both have the need to massively purge when they’re manic? I don’t even know why because … Continue reading Eating Disorder vs Bipolar Disorder
Oooo unmedicated, must mean I’m off my fruit loop right? No, I just haven’t found a medication that works for me yet and my psychiatrist thinks I should look at every option before tablets. His a nice guys haha! After taking my first trip since being diagnosed and most things going wrong because of my bipolar, I think I can safely write this post without … Continue reading Tips for travelling with newly diagnosed Bipolar unmedicated
So here we are, at the end of a bank holiday. I haven’t broken my non alcohol ban and I’m completely sober! Accomplishment I think so! Well done Rosie! The bank holiday worried me. Normally on a bank holiday I’d go out on the Friday night with a bunch of friends and get off my nutter – yes I’m using the word nutter. Wake up … Continue reading My first bank holiday sober